Stuck Knowledge

Ever since the February board exam results came up, a lot of people has been reminding me that I'm up next to take the August 2014 Physicians Licensure Exam. And now that I'm down to my last rotation for my internship, I can feel panic rising up my throat. 

But then I realized na GERD lang pala yun. Chos.

Seriously speaking, I feel flustered when I think about the exams because I am nowhere near ready. But then again, who is actually ready for it? During the past few weeks, I'm on a stage wherein I pity myself for being so dumb and weak because I didn't finish reading the damn textbook during med school. I feel like the things I've learned from med school is stuck in a rut somewhere in my rusty, old brain. Just look at my poor babies that I think were left unread: 

But after listening to personal experiences of some of the residents I am with, especially those I-am-not-a-genius-but-I-passed anecdotes, I snapped out of my depress-depressan state and thought while looking smug, "TANGINA, KAYA KO RIN YAN!!!"

I took out my Pathology book and scanned the pages. With a maniacal laugh inside my head, I said to myself, "NATAPOS KO PALA TO! HAHAHAHA". I checked my Pharmacology book and saw that I almost finished the entire book, I was screaming inside my head "BWAHAHA, HINDI PALA AKO WEAK!!!"

That being said, I will do my best so that I can pass the boards and finally go on the one thing I've been obsessing over and over again: Orthopedics.

Looking at Ortho residents, I now always say to myself, "Tangina, kaya ko rin yan."

Really now, this post warrants an entry for the future DSM V-TR: board-induced psychosis. Heck, this could also be the new stages of grief, board exam edition.

And why am I leaning towards Psychiatry? Nah. Whatevs.

Okay, I better stop this mumbo-jumbo and should finally get started in catching up on my reading.

Psychoanalyzing A Broken Heart

A week ago, I received news that someone, whom I'd like to call Aspy, has been blaming me for all the misfortunes of his messed up love life. One of the things that struck me is when he said, "Konti na lang, papatulan ko na siya (referring to me)". And I'm like, "Koya, what are you going to do to me? Pull my hair? Call me names? Make up stories about me? You don't even have proof that I was defaming you."

For a guy nearing the end of his early adulthood, I was expecting a civilized confrontation. Unfortunately, what he did has got to be the most juvenile thing that a grown (or partially grown) man can do because only 10 year old kids respond in such a way. 

When I first heard the news, I got frustrated by his remark that I wanted to come up to him and slap the stupid out his face because I hate stupid arguments. But then I realized that he might cry and drown me in his tears. There's no freaking way that I'm swimming in that. LOL.

A few people who knows the sordid tale of Aspy's love life resorted to psychoanalysis. Since I also like to psychoanalyze because it justifies my need to "understand where people are coming from", I was open to their opinions.

MMA Koya gives his two cents, "He knows he's at fault at what happened between you two and he couldn't accept it. Nasaktan yun kaya nagputa para hindi halata. Tangina, bakit ba mo ba kasi iniwan? Nawalan tuloy ng direksyon ang buhay nya simula ng iniwan mo kaya ayan, ikaw ang nasisisi *laughs like a hyena on crack*"

"You're the one that got away kaya sya nagpuputa at nagpapapansin ng ganyan," Snow White said.

Sosy Boy Senior says, in verbatim, "You broke his heart when you left him but he wants you back. However, he doesn't have the balls to tell you that he wants you back so he resorted to this lowblow. Yun nga lang, it was his fault so he deserves this somehow."

"Iniwan mo kasi kaya siya nagkakaganyan. HAHAHAHAHAHA," contributed Sosy Boy Junior.

Well even if it was me to begin with, he should get his act together and get his head out of his ass and stop being such a pussy. And with that, I dedicate this song to Aspy, who seems to be stuck in an emotional rut. His attitude is an important example for psychoanalysis that's why he deserves a blog post from me so that everyone will know how NOT to act when you're a 30 year old guy.

Photo Blog: Five Minute Anesthesiologist

When I was still in pre-med, I have been contemplating on three fields if ever I would actually pursue medicine. Those three are the following: 

1. Orthopedics
2. General Surgery
3. Anesthesiology

Since we are allowed to choose our minor rotation, I chose Anesthesiology as one of the four minors. Although I don't see myself as an anesthesiologist anymore, I just want to experience a day in their life. Luckily, I was allowed to intubate a patient, hence the photo and the title.

Verdict: Anesthesiology is a pretty interesting field but I'd rather work with them on the other end of the spectrum...being the surgeon, that is. Hrhr.

Photo Blog: Multicolor

I don't know about you but buying multicolored pens give me some sort of happiness. Maybe it's my knack for color-coordinating my notes or writing my thoughts in a different color that is appropriate with my current mood. 😁

The Beki Is Now A Lady

News Flash: May nagbigay sa akin ng flowers ngayong Valentine's Day. And mind you, this is not the "charity flowers" I usually get from my male friends because they don't want me to feel insignificant during this capitalist-driven day. If you have known me from my entire adolescent and the 2/3 of my early adulthood, I never received flowers with some underlying maharot intentions. Tangina, loser eh, no? Haha. Just imagine my surprise when I got these:

At dahil dyan, this deserves its own post. Walang basagan ng trip, plz. Milestone to! Di pala ako mukhang lalaki. Hahaha.

Because the beki is now a lady. Lawlsss.

Yun lang naman. As one of my friends puts it, "dalaga na si nene". Haha.