Ever since the February board exam results came up, a lot of people has been reminding me that I'm up next to take the August 2014 Physicians Licensure Exam. And now that I'm down to my last rotation for my internship, I can feel panic rising up my throat.
But then I realized na GERD lang pala yun. Chos.
Seriously speaking, I feel flustered when I think about the exams because I am nowhere near ready. But then again, who is actually ready for it? During the past few weeks, I'm on a stage wherein I pity myself for being so dumb and weak because I didn't finish reading the damn textbook during med school. I feel like the things I've learned from med school is stuck in a rut somewhere in my rusty, old brain. Just look at my poor babies that I think were left unread:
But after listening to personal experiences of some of the residents I am with, especially those I-am-not-a-genius-but-I-passed anecdotes, I snapped out of my depress-depressan state and thought while looking smug, "TANGINA, KAYA KO RIN YAN!!!"
I took out my Pathology book and scanned the pages. With a maniacal laugh inside my head, I said to myself, "NATAPOS KO PALA TO! HAHAHAHA". I checked my Pharmacology book and saw that I almost finished the entire book, I was screaming inside my head "BWAHAHA, HINDI PALA AKO WEAK!!!"
That being said, I will do my best so that I can pass the boards and finally go on the one thing I've been obsessing over and over again: Orthopedics.
Looking at Ortho residents, I now always say to myself, "Tangina, kaya ko rin yan."
Really now, this post warrants an entry for the future DSM V-TR: board-induced psychosis. Heck, this could also be the new stages of grief, board exam edition.
And why am I leaning towards Psychiatry? Nah. Whatevs.
Okay, I better stop this mumbo-jumbo and should finally get started in catching up on my reading.
